Skusta Clee Trending Breaks Wish 107.5

Skusta Clee does it again with his new song, “Umaasa.” Rapper/Singer Skusta Clee, often known for “Sa Susunod Nalang” or “Zebiana” trending

These Mask Win For Best Appearance and Safety

After much testing, the surgical mask is said

to be good enough to help protect against coronavirus.

We saw this in the video I made. It was actually the first one. When I was surprised that most of the vape smoke didn’t exit through the 3-ply filter. While these masks are not N95, they are just as good. N95 is only necessary for crucial situations where exposure may be prominent. Such as hospitals, retirement homes, assisted living, and mental health residencies. The one that wins in my belief is the black surgical mask. They are the most aesthetic while offering twice as much protection as cloth masks. At 25 cents apiece? This is a winner.

 

 

 

 

What Philippines and the world can learn from Portugal

What Philippines and the world can learn from Portugal

What the Philippines and the world can learn from Portugal

Vice News has always been a bittersweet channel since first discovering them. I’ve even applied one time to intern. But I’m sure thousands of other applicants (who have way more to offer) also tried.

I’ve grown to respect Vice News as they cover topics that many who live on the edge would love to consume. Not only on a consumption level — I should say.

There are a handful of other options to get this kind of content. But as someone who lives among the underworld, Vice News has the most accurate or close to real-life examples on their channel.

Even if perhaps it’s all staged, their accuracy on how the underworld operates is the “N95” level of authenticity. 

They could and would not be able to reveal what happens when cartel members smuggle kilos across the borders.

This is not to criticize them at all, though. I think they’re playing it safe while providing the prime rib of the underworld or illicit operations.

The kicker that wins my heart over to Vice News is their dedication to authentic journalism without FEAR, mainly while covering an AREA in the world that’s HOME to me. A SOCIOPATH and modern-day Nazi have invaded this HOME.

Hitler was a German who hated Jews. President Duterte Hates Those Who Do – anything related to drugs. If you’re a small-time dealer, you’re dead. If you’re a snitch, you’re finished.

If you’re a drug lord, you’re tortured, and the news will say, “Drug Syndicate Leader Has Gone Missing – No Leads.” Missing means that they erased you off the face of the earth. How?

Simple, DDS (Duterte’s Death Squad) catches you slipping or uses your people against you thinking they’re going to get their lives spared, but DDS kills them too. You’ll be thrown into a cremation chamber and they’ll free your ashes along the Manila Bay river. Just kidding, they’ll throw your shit away. 

Don’t be a snitch.It doesn’t work here. Tekashi 69 would have been dinner for the beast that lives in the Philippines.

For the very reason that VICE NEWS continues to cover the truth about what is going on in the Philippines, we can have accurate data on what is going on.

What the death toll is, and maybe bring justice one day to the genocide and failure of what any person can call a war on drugs. It isn’t easy to do journalism in the Philippines.

This is why VICE NEWS is brave for what they do. The Philippines has a system called “Red-Tagging.” If you ever heard of gangstalking, it is much similar except more deadly.

If the political party receives data that you’re a journalist living in the country, citizen or not, they will find you and kill you.  

This is a complete Human Rights Violation and is not even related to massive blood on Duterte’s hands.

Human Rights activists who have been trying to secretly publish journals about the accurate data and information in the country are often found shot, execution. Style. I don’t believe Duterte will step down as a President.

While I, not being born at the time of President Ferdinand Marcos, have studied that it does take longer than six years to fix the Philippines.

One must become a dictator if the Philippines ever left the third world behind. But Duterte has done nothing to show that he even remotely understands how the network and operations of manufacturing drugs and smuggling them into the country.

As Vice News said, as well as an NBI Official whom I keep contact with, “SHABU (crystal methamphetamine) HAS NOT ONLY BEEN A PROBLEM OF THE PAST, IT HAS BECOME A MUCH MORE PURE AND AFFORDABLE PROBLEM.”

You have to remember; this is after Duterte murdered thousands of poor people. He didn’t target the rich people who were addicts. He went straight into the barangays and began cleaning the house.

Funeral homes were running out of caskets; people are renting caskets because they’re so poor. Imagine in 8 years or so, the number of lives who have been killed because of this War On Drugs has to be excavated if the family can’t afford to keep the body sealed. The Philippines doesn’t always bury their dead.

In some cases, yes, but most are stacked in dirt poor MAUSOLEUMS around the city.

If they’re not dead, they’re tuna fish in a can inside the prison that is way past its maximum capacity.     

In My Honest Opinion, Duterte has his reasons, and I’m sure they’re moral in his psyche.

Though I can’t entirely agree with 99% of his presidency, I do believe that Duterte is the President that the Philippines needed.

But not because of the drugs. The data is there. The drugs are more affordable. The drugs are purer. The drugs are still getting into the country.

Corruption on so many levels, Duterte must put an END to this campaign, or I believe the US should step in.

Speaking of the United States, where do I start? Donald Trump, the most prolific tweeting president of the United States, has ever had to call a President.

Our country is far from perfect. We’ll never make America Great Again.

America was Great before it was stolen. I don’t see the US ever decriminalizing drugs the way that Portugal has done.

However, that is my wish in my lifetime to see the end of the war on drugs. It makes no sense that drugs are illegal.

VICE NEWS

I could buy enough Benadryl and vodka to kill myself or worse, someone else.

Yet, this is okay. Recently, marijuana has become legalized state bt state but is still Federally considered a schedule one drug.

The drug schedule must change. We must also put an end to making addicts criminals. I know many addicts who have big hearts.

Hearts that wouldn’t cause genocide in their own country. And that’s just Duterte when he Sober. Hitler is said to have been a tweaker during his days.

Imagine that? Duterte is a monster bt nature. Hitler probably was too, but I’m sure the sleepless nights and meth made him more violent over time.  

I believe DECRIMINALIZING DRUGS is the cure to bringing this country to be close to great.

Why? We lose so much money when it goes into the black market.

People will get what they want. We know that now. We can make all these laws, but it’s known now that people will get what they want no matter what.

Why don’t we take that money back from the Cartels? It will never make sense to me.   – JJJM. SEPTEMBER 9TH 5:02 AM

Leave Ryssi Alone i

Leave Ryssi Alone i

Dear Ryssi,

We’re Filipinos from America and we just wanted to let you know that we support you and don’t judge you. Don’t listen to anything that doesn’t make you grow as a person and as a performer. We are limited in knowledge about the whole situation between con, skusta clee, and zebianna. talaga, yan lang alam natin. we love skusta clee! shout out my boy! we also love con and zebbi. but if we had to show our most support, it would be to ryssi. the reason is because it looks like she has taken the most judgement from this experience. kung staged yun para sa views, okay alam natin galing ang drama sa youtube. but that still doesn’t come with pain. so ryssi, mahal, just know that we are praying for you. as American Filipinos, what you are going through is so normal. There’s no reason to feel ashamed for trying things out. You have to know how something taste before you can say you like it right? Diba? The Philippines mentality love to shame sex-culture, but Filipino-Americans, that shit is normal. Minsan ah, kakagising lang hinde namin alam sino kasma natin. basta hinde bading okay lang. hahaha. keep doing what you are doing. You have our support. We want to send you merch. You and Skusta Clee. We will sponsor what we can for your careers. As individuals. If you ever find this, contact me at [email protected]

I forgot that I had my own blog and had my own rules

I forgot that I had my own blog and had my own rules

Above all things shared, always have a safe space.

We often share our ideas on platforms to be genuinely interested in helping others. However, it is actually quite the opposite. Think about Medium.com for bloggers; now, I love this platform. Never before has it been easier to get strangers other than your Facebook friends who are worried about your sanity, so they click your blog but don’t read it. They just want to see where your head is at and make sure it’s still there or if they had to get ready to call the cavalry to come and save a hoe. I could never use that last sentence on Medium. Why? Because it’s improper. In fact, the way I write is improper.

This removes my creativity because we become more focused on trying to get paid for our writing. Some bloggers are seemingly natural at this. It’s almost as if they write something while taking a shit every morning, they press publish, and minutes later, they receive a thousand dollar check. Now, that is probably not likely, but it isn’t entirely impossible. I bet there’s at least a handful of writers who have this as a morning ritual as they take a shit. Maybe it’s their best way to feel productive while also participating in a natural and daily task. It’s almost like a prayer. A form of worship. For lack of a better description.

I think it’s important to be able to step away from any platform and have a back dialogue that your admirers can discover and be like, oh shit. There’s more to the story than what was written on Medium. That is a fact. On Medium, though I write about sexual experiences and escapades, I often leave out details. I leave enough so that it can perform as erotica and get those geeky women turned on. I actually think that reading erotica is more freaky for a woman than watching pron.

Why? Because they can do it anywhere.

They can be smack dab front and center, Holy Bible as a case but a book inside containing how some serial killer fucks the shit out of his woman before he goes out and does some assassin shit. I don’t know, I never read erotica. I just write it because it gets clicks. Except for that one time, I used my own picture as the featured thumbnail. Never again will I waste such a passive skill on losing clicks due to my beautifully designed structure, some call, and a place to sit on. See what I did there? Erotica is sometimes subtle, and this is how it should be. I remember when I first started getting laid, me and my ex would skip foreplay. We were like what?

I don’t want to say. But what the hell do we know about foreplay? All we grew up to know was kiss, touch, taste, then fuck. This all would come in phases too. Kissing would be a phase for a subjective amount of time. Eventually, one of you gets a little ahead of yourselves and becomes curious. Like, damn, what else that mouth do? Hold on there, guy, don’t try to steal third when you can’t leverage your energy to keep your foot on the base. Some people ask me if you write erotica, how come I never see it online? Well, don’t you feel justified, curious clit.

I’m Mark Twain, bitch. If you didn’t know, Mark Twain was a pseudonym. Which is like a pen name. It’s actually legal to create a false identity as long as you don’t do anything illegal. The main reason to use a fake name (and only reason) should be to protect your identity. Never use it to create something out of nothing; always use it as a proxy to keep you safe from getting your real identity stolen or shamed. Shamed? What do you mean, shamed?

Ahh… Do tell. Do you really know who your friends are? I think coronavirus, despite the fact we’re hiding our faces more than ever in history, our real faces have been exposed. I know which of my friends sell their nudes on Onlyfans.com. I don’t judge them, I actually subscribe to them for support, but I don’t even look at their work. Why? Well, maybe I already saw them naked in real life? What else is there for me? That’s like jacking off to the same porno everyday. Which, at this point, is probably the only option for 1%. While this was the norm back in the day.

We found a tape, a VCR (if you know what that is), we stuck it in, hoping the film wouldn’t get ruined or else we’d get caught. Imagine having to explain to your parents that you were not watching porno even though your dad has to pry open the VCR because the tape got stuck inside. Kids today will never understand the struggle. They complain that pron is trash. I’m like, Nah dude, your pron is trash. I get free live stream notifications whenever one of my girl-friends decides to play for the night. I’m Q-Anon, but I’m pretty sure they know I’m watching or will see it. After all, I did build their website for them. I did suggest it as a way of making money. But as they all tell me, “oh, hell no, I’m serious about my business.” From fitness to make up to hairdressing, I’ve heard it all.

Okay, okay, I’ll build your web presence. Before I know it, I do a regular web site performance check and find that they’re hardly using their website they paid me to build. And have all flocked to this one link. Only Fans. What is this, only Onlyfans?! I check it out, oh… wow. I see. I text them, “do you still need hosting cause it looks like your business is doing much better off the WordPress?” “Yeah, just leave it up, I’ll use it now and then.” Well… you should. You should always have a safe space. You never know when a platform is going to shutdown. Or if their servers are getting hacked. Whatever it is, your business based on someone else’s control can all be taken away, and you agree to their terms of service. Once that platform is gone, where are all your horny ass followers going find you? Exactly. Now, can I please have the proxy link to your OnlyFans? I’m not paying for that; you still owe me for the website.

And there you go, I get a much better experience because it’s personal. Not really. I mean, there are 10 other guys in this live stream, but when you’re turned on, it’s easy to ignore all the comments, or what I do is turn off the chat. The fuck do I need that for. I’m here for my personal experience to see my friend perform. I’m here to support her hustle. Even after I’ve fallen asleep and wake up to see, she’s still going strong. I shut my MacBook; that’s enough for the day. What time is it? 9 am? I’m going back to sleep. I’ll see my other friend at 6 pm later. I got the proxy link to hers for managing her Instagram. I mean, I already see all her stuff when I’m using her laptop.

What’s the difference? “Yeah, I guess you’re right.” Yeah… and what if you sign on live and nobody comes in. How embarrassing, right? I can already hear the red pill community marching down from all corners of the red pill world to strike me for being an advocate for feminism. I would question their knowledge of the red pill. The red pill is not an agenda to only look at women as sexual objects. Want to know why that is wrong? Your sister. Your Aunt. Your Mom. Your Cousin. All Women. Want to express more of your shallow knowledge of the red pill? Exactly. Just to be a captain, save a hoe for your own good. You need to be a rationale male. Hence the book by Tomasi. In a nutshell, to not steal, add, or deduct from what has been established, you need to stop worshiping women. As in, thinking you’re lucky to have them. This is not to put down women at all. It’s just respecting yourself as a man.

You must be the prize, not her. Society has taught us and programmed us to look at women as the prized ones. But, even women don’t want to be treated this way. It’s creepy as hell. And once a woman has figured you out, you’re no longer a strange being that makes her vajayjay tingle at the sight of your eyes and the sound of your voice.

 

 

Cleaning N95 Masks

Cleaning N95 Masks

In this video, we show how to clean the n95 mask using UV light.

Do we answer how to clean the N95 mask? Is it possible to sterilize an N95 respirator? With the lack of personal protective equipment and mask shortage, we’ve had to turn to desperate measures for desperate times. We take a break from vaping and learn how to disinfect the n95 face mask with UV C light technology. The N95 masks or n95 respirator in this video are a different type. They are similar to the KN95 masks but they’re American. This video is really a chance for me to get. to know my audience. I decided and saved up enough to come up with a little kit that I can give out to the first 20 people who sign up for it. The first and second sign-ups will receive the extra UVC devices I received. Anyway, more info about that in the video.

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HOW TO DISINFECT N95 RESPIRATOR W/ UVC BOX STERILIZER (N95 MASKS GIVEAWAY)

HOW TO DISINFECT N95 RESPIRATOR W/ UVC BOX STERILIZER (N95 MASKS GIVEAWAY)

In this video, we answer how to clean N95 mask? IS it possible to sterilize a N95 respirator? With the lack of ppe, and mask shortage, we’ve had to turn to desperate measures for desperate times. We take a break from vaping and learn how to disinfect n95 face mask with uv c light technology. The N95 masks or n95 respirator in this video are a different type. They are similar to the KN95 masks but they’re American. This video is really a chance for me to get. to know my audience. I decided and saved up enough to come up with a little kit that I can give out to the first 20 people who sign up for it. The first and second sign ups will receive the extra UVC devices I received. Anyway, more info about that in the video.

Disclaimer:
This channel has no advertisements and is not monetized by YouTube or Google. However, to keep the channel (and business) running, we share ideas and insights to help you discover the items that can be essential to you. We utilize the Amazon Affiliate program, so we may receive compensation for any such products that we review.

Disclaimer:
I am not a medical professional. I do not offer professional advice, just personal experiences. Abstract Discovery LLC assumes no responsibility for your actions towards the content.

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Connecting Through Good Music

Connecting Through Good Music

Before the Good Music… Go ahead, we all need to take a breather.

Hi! If you’re new to the abstract discovery, welcome! As of writing this, we’re four months shy of 2021.

We lost 2020. Even more, we lost lives, sanity, human rights, friends, family, finances, and sadly, hope.

What do you do when you lose the last thing you have? Hope is all we have in times like this but I don’t blame anyone for losing it.

This year has tested every business and individual. It brought out the truth. It was a year of cleansing.

However, if you’re one who’s lost hope in everything, be assured that you still have this moment.

You still have life, you’re still breathing. Before we know it, we’ll be a moment in history and eventually, life will go on.

The purpose of this page is to share music, videos, poems, or any kind of media that can offer us a reason to have hope, again.

Connecting the Philippines with the Filipino’s overseas, we welcome everyone to chime in.

If your vision doesn’t make you look crazy, it’s not big enough.

If your vision doesn’t make you look crazy, it’s not big enough.

“They won’t see your vision. They simply can’t. But with the right amount of work, your vision will become contagious.”
Here I am, enjoying the last day at our old office at Cross Campus, El Segundo. I didn’t know my friend was taking a picture.

It was this moment where I was scared about the next step in the brand. My mentor consulted with me and gave me an ultimatum.

It was,

“Go all in or just stop what you’re doing cause you’re wasting your time.” To me, I was confused because I thought that I was already, “all-in.”

Now my head is all over the place. I was working a full-time job at a psychiatric facility, I co-hosted a podcast and YouTube Channel, and on top of that, I had just started a clothing brand.

If there is any advice I could give, it’s to do what makes you happy while doing what makes you money. You can take that however you want to interpret it. In the end, it will all riddle the same meaning.

That’s why I was in my thoughts in this picture. I knew that it was great to have this office for the podcast and for creating content, but with the clothing brand being established, it was a commodity that I had to give up if I really wanted this new brand to succeed.

 

 

How To Tell If Your Mask Is Effective? (N95 vs KN95 COMPARISON)

How To Tell If Your Mask Is Effective? (N95 vs KN95 COMPARISON)

How To Tell If Your Mask Is Effective?

A side by side n95 vs kn95 comparison! Since there is a mandatory face masks/face-covering law, makers from all trades have dedicated to creating more masks.

A new market has opened. Like the previous episode, I brought out the vape and put on my non-scientific coat and threw on my, “I am not medical professional hat.”

During my month-long hiatus, I found myself in the weirdest places looking for these masks called, “N95 Masks or N95 Respirators.”

I found out more about the underground black market. Best believe, these N95 Masks and KN95 Masks are in abundance. While the news has been saying there is a shortage of PPE, what I saw was an oversaturation of effective masks. Effective in the sense that they were definitely N95 strong, but they were illegally manufactured.

Some of these products go through various cycles of re-labeling and rebranding. For example, if “ABC Masks” gets flagged for some reason and lose their NIOSH entitlement, they would simply change the packaging. They’d operate under multiple fictitious business names. I discovered more then I wanted to know during this study.

From counterfeit masks being stronger than the real 3M N95 Masks. To the most strongest mask, rating N99. I hope you enjoy this video.

This one tested my will power and purpose. I literally wanted to give up. I’ve been having issues in my personal life as well. I’m sure we’re all going through something today.

That inspired me to just create and even though I don’t have support from friends or family, I know that I’m happier when I’m creating. Kn95 mask review and face-covering options!

 

In a Time of Crisis, Your Strongest Weapon is Your Pen

In a Time of Crisis, Your Strongest Weapon is Your Pen

Where Empathy Overrides Power on Any Given Day

Have you ever thought about how powerful a simple pen is? I’m sure there are customized pens made for government spies and while that is cool, the strongest asset is the pen’s ink. As a medication-technician in the psych unit, your pen becomes all that you have. I’ll tell you more about this later.

For nearly two years, I worked alone overnight and was responsible for over a hundred psychiatric patients. Schizophrenia, bipolar, and borderline personalities; I spent forty hours of the week with. That’s 160 hours a month, you can continue the math.

Many have said to me that it should be easy since it’s late at night when all the patients are sleeping. Many have also not had the pleasure. For the most part, I don’t look at anyone with a mental disorder any different than I look at myself. Little does anyone know, I am outpatient. Disclosure, voluntary.

That’s something I learned about myself after being attacked by something I could not control or be fully prepared for. The way I react externally to any crisis will bleed onto the sheet of my internal and often astute, hidden truths. Be mindful, calm, even more creative, I tell advise.

 



If I truly desire to be a thought leader then my target must be to hustle and motivate without being ignorant of the current situation happening right before our eyes.

A patient has been cheeking their meds for well over two weeks. I begin to see a change of personality. This change is subtle and takes one to know one. Their family decides to take them home during the weekend to spend some quality time with their beloved. Social distancing is ironically not their thing, I guess. I would prepare two days and two nights of their medication and stuff them into small ziplock bags. They should be back by Monday morning to take their meds during the first roll call.

Almost always, they’re back the next day. As they hand me Sunday’s meds, I say, “Back already, huh?” as I examine their eyes, posture, mood, and tone. Pupils fully dilated, response time quick, attitude; insolent.

Red flag, the patient is high, but don’t make such assumptions out loud. As I process all of these thoughts, I start documenting on the laptop. The next shifts would need such data. I check for any signs of abuse or injections.

I ask the patient if there is something wrong or is there something I should know so I could better assist and provide them the service they needed to promote their right to a “quality of life.”

They tell me, no, but their behavior screams the opposite.

I take out my pen and give them an offer;

“Listen, I can protect you but you gotta play ball with me.”

Works every time. “I used it again, I’m sorry, I’m going to bed.” Thought so, I don’t write them up, I don’t report it. I ask, are you ready to come down or still chillin’?

Regardless of the answer, I say drink some water before you leave and bring some with you. If they were ready to come down and sleep, over the counter omeprazole and Benedryl did the trick if they didn’t have a script for quetiapine fumarate (Seroquel)[.] Methamphetamine, the suspect as usual.

I live in Los Angeles, California, where the first imagery that comes to mind is that of Hollywood, the American Dream, and home to the dankest strains mother nature produces by the evergreen. You don’t automatically think about the homeless, the domestic violence, the easy access to drugs, retail and recreational marijuana.

No, I’m not discriminating against anyone or making assumptions without clear circumstantial evidence. I have to know my patients and better, create mutual respect. Without either, you could not last in this position. I learned this early in my career and this is nothing you can learn ‘textbook.’

The political system in the mental health field is one-sided, “the patient is the priority. This is their home, you have a job because they’re paying to be here.

You’re getting paid to be here.” If there is a fire, you’re the last one out (if your lucky), no exceptions. Remember these thoughts as someone who probably brings home at least fifty grand a year.

As I question why I only make the city’s minimum wage. Which grosses to around twenty-six grand tops, no benefits, no 401k, no health insurance, no paid time off, and no fucks given, at-will. Since I took the “harder way” it’s always difficult to find a job that truly invested in me for the long run.

Yet,

I take out my pen.

I sign all the documents stating that I’ve read all the above and understand what it means to be an at-will employee. Upon my termination, I take out my pen once more and sign that I acknowledge the termination and would like to receive my $700 check. If we didn’t sign, we wouldn’t receive our check. I look at my check and I start to cry because this is two-dollars short of my rent.

That pen I used could have got patients kicked out of the facility. That’s why I didn’t write them up if they were honest with me. It’s accountability.

Be real with me and I’ll be real with you.

I don’t want to take away your home and I am not nosey. I just need to know who to look out for in case there’s screaming, fighting, overdosing, and court orders. I’m that medication-technician that will tell your caseworker that you get better every day, but every day doesn’t get better. No one is perfect. As long as there are no signs of abuse, we coordinate to keep people out of jail.

Even when we give out so much empathy, I learned that empathy will not earn someone’s respect. It takes sacrifice, going against the grain, but not to my benefit at all. It’s career-suicide for me, but as an at-will employee, I need it like the flowers need the light of day and water as the fountain of well-being.

Respect might not matter to you. I remember saying that the first time I got my ass beat by a patient for “having no respect.” Respect is not an entitlement, I learned that it’s a survival skill. Just as these people knew that they could beat me down if they wanted to, they knew that I could put them back on the streets if I really wanted to. I can orchestrate the entire scenario, but I don’t.

 

They say the more you learn, the more you earn. It’s quite the opposite in this environment. The more you earn respect, the more you’ll learn how to adapt to an environment where a crisis is normal and silence becomes suspicious. I earned my respect because I learned to use my pen wisely.

You have to take into consideration what kind of trauma these people have been through. Not to add what they are currently going through with overcrowding and serious disregard for the housing and cleaning of the facility.

The smell of broken homes, the scent of someone selling everything but their soul, and reek of the life that used to be; laid dormant without wanting to shower or eat. Could you write anyone up?



Imagine taking away the last thing someone had. Like the scent of someone who sold everything but their soul finally lost her last possession. She’s back on the street and God only knows what’s going to happen to her.

Your pen all of sudden is a lot more powerful than you thought. But, it’s alone. It needs you to use its power. In a time of crisis, it needs you to (see picture above, limit or practice virtual hugs for now).

I’m well aware of what is happening today, but that doesn’t need to be the only conversation we are having. In fact, it should be the last conversation we have. Okay, that sounded scary, I didn’t mean it that way. I meant — you get me.

There is a solution to every problem. Problematically, solutions being hard to come by, are sometimes the most inconvenient, scary, unimaginable, hardest “pills” to swallow but we have no choice.

We only have to trust. We must continue to write these letters to the future. So they can learn from our mistakes. 

They can pick up where we left off, as their future will pick up their’s.

It’s time, you’ve been here long enough. You know what you have to do. Finish that book. Publish that article. Look back at all your drafts that you never had the inspiration or will to complete.

 

You have all this time now. Publish that. You’re running out of money to pay your bills, you’re afraid your credit report is going to show your irresponsibility during a global pandemic? Tell them to piss off. You’re good for it, dispute it and it’ll be removed later, trust me. Let’s do what we do, writers and amateurs (like me). Do so, “to a T.”

Stay safe. Health is wealth. The social distance over social ignorance. Listen to the professionals that step in when the commander in chief doesn’t have the answer. Then disregard his following, opposite, and often optimistic snarks. Frontliners, we cannot thank you enough.

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What the Philippines and the world can learn from Portugal

Vice News has always been a bittersweet channel since first discovering them. I’ve even applied one time to intern. But I’m sure thousands of other applicants (who have way more to offer) also tried.

I’ve grown to respect Vice News as they cover topics that many who live on the edge would love to consume. Not only on a consumption level — I should say.

There are a handful of other options to get this kind of content. But as someone who lives among the underworld, Vice News has the most accurate or close to real-life examples on their channel.

Even if perhaps it’s all staged, their accuracy on how the underworld operates is the “N95” level of authenticity. 

They could and would not be able to reveal what happens when cartel members smuggle kilos across the borders.

This is not to criticize them at all, though. I think they’re playing it safe while providing the prime rib of the underworld or illicit operations.

The kicker that wins my heart over to Vice News is their dedication to authentic journalism without FEAR, mainly while covering an AREA in the world that’s HOME to me. A SOCIOPATH and modern-day Nazi have invaded this HOME.

Hitler was a German who hated Jews. President Duterte Hates Those Who Do – anything related to drugs. If you’re a small-time dealer, you’re dead. If you’re a snitch, you’re finished.

If you’re a drug lord, you’re tortured, and the news will say, “Drug Syndicate Leader Has Gone Missing – No Leads.” Missing means that they erased you off the face of the earth. How?

Simple, DDS (Duterte’s Death Squad) catches you slipping or uses your people against you thinking they’re going to get their lives spared, but DDS kills them too. You’ll be thrown into a cremation chamber and they’ll free your ashes along the Manila Bay river. Just kidding, they’ll throw your shit away. 

Don’t be a snitch.It doesn’t work here. Tekashi 69 would have been dinner for the beast that lives in the Philippines.

For the very reason that VICE NEWS continues to cover the truth about what is going on in the Philippines, we can have accurate data on what is going on.

What the death toll is, and maybe bring justice one day to the genocide and failure of what any person can call a war on drugs. It isn’t easy to do journalism in the Philippines.

This is why VICE NEWS is brave for what they do. The Philippines has a system called “Red-Tagging.” If you ever heard of gangstalking, it is much similar except more deadly.

If the political party receives data that you’re a journalist living in the country, citizen or not, they will find you and kill you.  

This is a complete Human Rights Violation and is not even related to massive blood on Duterte’s hands.

Human Rights activists who have been trying to secretly publish journals about the accurate data and information in the country are often found shot, execution. Style. I don’t believe Duterte will step down as a President.

While I, not being born at the time of President Ferdinand Marcos, have studied that it does take longer than six years to fix the Philippines.

One must become a dictator if the Philippines ever left the third world behind. But Duterte has done nothing to show that he even remotely understands how the network and operations of manufacturing drugs and smuggling them into the country.

As Vice News said, as well as an NBI Official whom I keep contact with, “SHABU (crystal methamphetamine) HAS NOT ONLY BEEN A PROBLEM OF THE PAST, IT HAS BECOME A MUCH MORE PURE AND AFFORDABLE PROBLEM.”

You have to remember; this is after Duterte murdered thousands of poor people. He didn’t target the rich people who were addicts. He went straight into the barangays and began cleaning the house.

Funeral homes were running out of caskets; people are renting caskets because they’re so poor. Imagine in 8 years or so, the number of lives who have been killed because of this War On Drugs has to be excavated if the family can’t afford to keep the body sealed. The Philippines doesn’t always bury their dead.

In some cases, yes, but most are stacked in dirt poor MAUSOLEUMS around the city.

If they’re not dead, they’re tuna fish in a can inside the prison that is way past its maximum capacity.     

In My Honest Opinion, Duterte has his reasons, and I’m sure they’re moral in his psyche.

Though I can’t entirely agree with 99% of his presidency, I do believe that Duterte is the President that the Philippines needed.

But not because of the drugs. The data is there. The drugs are more affordable. The drugs are purer. The drugs are still getting into the country.

Corruption on so many levels, Duterte must put an END to this campaign, or I believe the US should step in.

Speaking of the United States, where do I start? Donald Trump, the most prolific tweeting president of the United States, has ever had to call a President.

Our country is far from perfect. We’ll never make America Great Again.

America was Great before it was stolen. I don’t see the US ever decriminalizing drugs the way that Portugal has done.

However, that is my wish in my lifetime to see the end of the war on drugs. It makes no sense that drugs are illegal.

VICE NEWS

I could buy enough Benadryl and vodka to kill myself or worse, someone else.

Yet, this is okay. Recently, marijuana has become legalized state bt state but is still Federally considered a schedule one drug.

The drug schedule must change. We must also put an end to making addicts criminals. I know many addicts who have big hearts.

Hearts that wouldn’t cause genocide in their own country. And that’s just Duterte when he Sober. Hitler is said to have been a tweaker during his days.

Imagine that? Duterte is a monster bt nature. Hitler probably was too, but I’m sure the sleepless nights and meth made him more violent over time.  

I believe DECRIMINALIZING DRUGS is the cure to bringing this country to be close to great.

Why? We lose so much money when it goes into the black market.

People will get what they want. We know that now. We can make all these laws, but it’s known now that people will get what they want no matter what.

Why don’t we take that money back from the Cartels? It will never make sense to me.   – JJJM. SEPTEMBER 9TH 5:02 AM

These Mask Win For Best Appearance and Safety

After much testing, the surgical mask is said

to be good enough to help protect against coronavirus.

We saw this in the video I made. It was actually the first one. When I was surprised that most of the vape smoke didn’t exit through the 3-ply filter. While these masks are not N95, they are just as good. N95 is only necessary for crucial situations where exposure may be prominent. Such as hospitals, retirement homes, assisted living, and mental health residencies. The one that wins in my belief is the black surgical mask. They are the most aesthetic while offering twice as much protection as cloth masks. At 25 cents apiece? This is a winner.

 

 

 

 

What Philippines and the world can learn from Portugal

What Philippines and the world can learn from Portugal

What the Philippines and the world can learn from Portugal

Vice News has always been a bittersweet channel since first discovering them. I’ve even applied one time to intern. But I’m sure thousands of other applicants (who have way more to offer) also tried.

I’ve grown to respect Vice News as they cover topics that many who live on the edge would love to consume. Not only on a consumption level — I should say.

There are a handful of other options to get this kind of content. But as someone who lives among the underworld, Vice News has the most accurate or close to real-life examples on their channel.

Even if perhaps it’s all staged, their accuracy on how the underworld operates is the “N95” level of authenticity. 

They could and would not be able to reveal what happens when cartel members smuggle kilos across the borders.

This is not to criticize them at all, though. I think they’re playing it safe while providing the prime rib of the underworld or illicit operations.

The kicker that wins my heart over to Vice News is their dedication to authentic journalism without FEAR, mainly while covering an AREA in the world that’s HOME to me. A SOCIOPATH and modern-day Nazi have invaded this HOME.

Hitler was a German who hated Jews. President Duterte Hates Those Who Do – anything related to drugs. If you’re a small-time dealer, you’re dead. If you’re a snitch, you’re finished.

If you’re a drug lord, you’re tortured, and the news will say, “Drug Syndicate Leader Has Gone Missing – No Leads.” Missing means that they erased you off the face of the earth. How?

Simple, DDS (Duterte’s Death Squad) catches you slipping or uses your people against you thinking they’re going to get their lives spared, but DDS kills them too. You’ll be thrown into a cremation chamber and they’ll free your ashes along the Manila Bay river. Just kidding, they’ll throw your shit away. 

Don’t be a snitch.It doesn’t work here. Tekashi 69 would have been dinner for the beast that lives in the Philippines.

For the very reason that VICE NEWS continues to cover the truth about what is going on in the Philippines, we can have accurate data on what is going on.

What the death toll is, and maybe bring justice one day to the genocide and failure of what any person can call a war on drugs. It isn’t easy to do journalism in the Philippines.

This is why VICE NEWS is brave for what they do. The Philippines has a system called “Red-Tagging.” If you ever heard of gangstalking, it is much similar except more deadly.

If the political party receives data that you’re a journalist living in the country, citizen or not, they will find you and kill you.  

This is a complete Human Rights Violation and is not even related to massive blood on Duterte’s hands.

Human Rights activists who have been trying to secretly publish journals about the accurate data and information in the country are often found shot, execution. Style. I don’t believe Duterte will step down as a President.

While I, not being born at the time of President Ferdinand Marcos, have studied that it does take longer than six years to fix the Philippines.

One must become a dictator if the Philippines ever left the third world behind. But Duterte has done nothing to show that he even remotely understands how the network and operations of manufacturing drugs and smuggling them into the country.

As Vice News said, as well as an NBI Official whom I keep contact with, “SHABU (crystal methamphetamine) HAS NOT ONLY BEEN A PROBLEM OF THE PAST, IT HAS BECOME A MUCH MORE PURE AND AFFORDABLE PROBLEM.”

You have to remember; this is after Duterte murdered thousands of poor people. He didn’t target the rich people who were addicts. He went straight into the barangays and began cleaning the house.

Funeral homes were running out of caskets; people are renting caskets because they’re so poor. Imagine in 8 years or so, the number of lives who have been killed because of this War On Drugs has to be excavated if the family can’t afford to keep the body sealed. The Philippines doesn’t always bury their dead.

In some cases, yes, but most are stacked in dirt poor MAUSOLEUMS around the city.

If they’re not dead, they’re tuna fish in a can inside the prison that is way past its maximum capacity.     

In My Honest Opinion, Duterte has his reasons, and I’m sure they’re moral in his psyche.

Though I can’t entirely agree with 99% of his presidency, I do believe that Duterte is the President that the Philippines needed.

But not because of the drugs. The data is there. The drugs are more affordable. The drugs are purer. The drugs are still getting into the country.

Corruption on so many levels, Duterte must put an END to this campaign, or I believe the US should step in.

Speaking of the United States, where do I start? Donald Trump, the most prolific tweeting president of the United States, has ever had to call a President.

Our country is far from perfect. We’ll never make America Great Again.

America was Great before it was stolen. I don’t see the US ever decriminalizing drugs the way that Portugal has done.

However, that is my wish in my lifetime to see the end of the war on drugs. It makes no sense that drugs are illegal.

VICE NEWS

I could buy enough Benadryl and vodka to kill myself or worse, someone else.

Yet, this is okay. Recently, marijuana has become legalized state bt state but is still Federally considered a schedule one drug.

The drug schedule must change. We must also put an end to making addicts criminals. I know many addicts who have big hearts.

Hearts that wouldn’t cause genocide in their own country. And that’s just Duterte when he Sober. Hitler is said to have been a tweaker during his days.

Imagine that? Duterte is a monster bt nature. Hitler probably was too, but I’m sure the sleepless nights and meth made him more violent over time.  

I believe DECRIMINALIZING DRUGS is the cure to bringing this country to be close to great.

Why? We lose so much money when it goes into the black market.

People will get what they want. We know that now. We can make all these laws, but it’s known now that people will get what they want no matter what.

Why don’t we take that money back from the Cartels? It will never make sense to me.   – JJJM. SEPTEMBER 9TH 5:02 AM

Leave Ryssi Alone i

Leave Ryssi Alone i

Dear Ryssi,

We’re Filipinos from America and we just wanted to let you know that we support you and don’t judge you. Don’t listen to anything that doesn’t make you grow as a person and as a performer. We are limited in knowledge about the whole situation between con, skusta clee, and zebianna. talaga, yan lang alam natin. we love skusta clee! shout out my boy! we also love con and zebbi. but if we had to show our most support, it would be to ryssi. the reason is because it looks like she has taken the most judgement from this experience. kung staged yun para sa views, okay alam natin galing ang drama sa youtube. but that still doesn’t come with pain. so ryssi, mahal, just know that we are praying for you. as American Filipinos, what you are going through is so normal. There’s no reason to feel ashamed for trying things out. You have to know how something taste before you can say you like it right? Diba? The Philippines mentality love to shame sex-culture, but Filipino-Americans, that shit is normal. Minsan ah, kakagising lang hinde namin alam sino kasma natin. basta hinde bading okay lang. hahaha. keep doing what you are doing. You have our support. We want to send you merch. You and Skusta Clee. We will sponsor what we can for your careers. As individuals. If you ever find this, contact me at [email protected]

I forgot that I had my own blog and had my own rules

I forgot that I had my own blog and had my own rules

Above all things shared, always have a safe space.

We often share our ideas on platforms to be genuinely interested in helping others. However, it is actually quite the opposite. Think about Medium.com for bloggers; now, I love this platform. Never before has it been easier to get strangers other than your Facebook friends who are worried about your sanity, so they click your blog but don’t read it. They just want to see where your head is at and make sure it’s still there or if they had to get ready to call the cavalry to come and save a hoe. I could never use that last sentence on Medium. Why? Because it’s improper. In fact, the way I write is improper.

This removes my creativity because we become more focused on trying to get paid for our writing. Some bloggers are seemingly natural at this. It’s almost as if they write something while taking a shit every morning, they press publish, and minutes later, they receive a thousand dollar check. Now, that is probably not likely, but it isn’t entirely impossible. I bet there’s at least a handful of writers who have this as a morning ritual as they take a shit. Maybe it’s their best way to feel productive while also participating in a natural and daily task. It’s almost like a prayer. A form of worship. For lack of a better description.

I think it’s important to be able to step away from any platform and have a back dialogue that your admirers can discover and be like, oh shit. There’s more to the story than what was written on Medium. That is a fact. On Medium, though I write about sexual experiences and escapades, I often leave out details. I leave enough so that it can perform as erotica and get those geeky women turned on. I actually think that reading erotica is more freaky for a woman than watching pron.

Why? Because they can do it anywhere.

They can be smack dab front and center, Holy Bible as a case but a book inside containing how some serial killer fucks the shit out of his woman before he goes out and does some assassin shit. I don’t know, I never read erotica. I just write it because it gets clicks. Except for that one time, I used my own picture as the featured thumbnail. Never again will I waste such a passive skill on losing clicks due to my beautifully designed structure, some call, and a place to sit on. See what I did there? Erotica is sometimes subtle, and this is how it should be. I remember when I first started getting laid, me and my ex would skip foreplay. We were like what?

I don’t want to say. But what the hell do we know about foreplay? All we grew up to know was kiss, touch, taste, then fuck. This all would come in phases too. Kissing would be a phase for a subjective amount of time. Eventually, one of you gets a little ahead of yourselves and becomes curious. Like, damn, what else that mouth do? Hold on there, guy, don’t try to steal third when you can’t leverage your energy to keep your foot on the base. Some people ask me if you write erotica, how come I never see it online? Well, don’t you feel justified, curious clit.

I’m Mark Twain, bitch. If you didn’t know, Mark Twain was a pseudonym. Which is like a pen name. It’s actually legal to create a false identity as long as you don’t do anything illegal. The main reason to use a fake name (and only reason) should be to protect your identity. Never use it to create something out of nothing; always use it as a proxy to keep you safe from getting your real identity stolen or shamed. Shamed? What do you mean, shamed?

Ahh… Do tell. Do you really know who your friends are? I think coronavirus, despite the fact we’re hiding our faces more than ever in history, our real faces have been exposed. I know which of my friends sell their nudes on Onlyfans.com. I don’t judge them, I actually subscribe to them for support, but I don’t even look at their work. Why? Well, maybe I already saw them naked in real life? What else is there for me? That’s like jacking off to the same porno everyday. Which, at this point, is probably the only option for 1%. While this was the norm back in the day.

We found a tape, a VCR (if you know what that is), we stuck it in, hoping the film wouldn’t get ruined or else we’d get caught. Imagine having to explain to your parents that you were not watching porno even though your dad has to pry open the VCR because the tape got stuck inside. Kids today will never understand the struggle. They complain that pron is trash. I’m like, Nah dude, your pron is trash. I get free live stream notifications whenever one of my girl-friends decides to play for the night. I’m Q-Anon, but I’m pretty sure they know I’m watching or will see it. After all, I did build their website for them. I did suggest it as a way of making money. But as they all tell me, “oh, hell no, I’m serious about my business.” From fitness to make up to hairdressing, I’ve heard it all.

Okay, okay, I’ll build your web presence. Before I know it, I do a regular web site performance check and find that they’re hardly using their website they paid me to build. And have all flocked to this one link. Only Fans. What is this, only Onlyfans?! I check it out, oh… wow. I see. I text them, “do you still need hosting cause it looks like your business is doing much better off the WordPress?” “Yeah, just leave it up, I’ll use it now and then.” Well… you should. You should always have a safe space. You never know when a platform is going to shutdown. Or if their servers are getting hacked. Whatever it is, your business based on someone else’s control can all be taken away, and you agree to their terms of service. Once that platform is gone, where are all your horny ass followers going find you? Exactly. Now, can I please have the proxy link to your OnlyFans? I’m not paying for that; you still owe me for the website.

And there you go, I get a much better experience because it’s personal. Not really. I mean, there are 10 other guys in this live stream, but when you’re turned on, it’s easy to ignore all the comments, or what I do is turn off the chat. The fuck do I need that for. I’m here for my personal experience to see my friend perform. I’m here to support her hustle. Even after I’ve fallen asleep and wake up to see, she’s still going strong. I shut my MacBook; that’s enough for the day. What time is it? 9 am? I’m going back to sleep. I’ll see my other friend at 6 pm later. I got the proxy link to hers for managing her Instagram. I mean, I already see all her stuff when I’m using her laptop.

What’s the difference? “Yeah, I guess you’re right.” Yeah… and what if you sign on live and nobody comes in. How embarrassing, right? I can already hear the red pill community marching down from all corners of the red pill world to strike me for being an advocate for feminism. I would question their knowledge of the red pill. The red pill is not an agenda to only look at women as sexual objects. Want to know why that is wrong? Your sister. Your Aunt. Your Mom. Your Cousin. All Women. Want to express more of your shallow knowledge of the red pill? Exactly. Just to be a captain, save a hoe for your own good. You need to be a rationale male. Hence the book by Tomasi. In a nutshell, to not steal, add, or deduct from what has been established, you need to stop worshiping women. As in, thinking you’re lucky to have them. This is not to put down women at all. It’s just respecting yourself as a man.

You must be the prize, not her. Society has taught us and programmed us to look at women as the prized ones. But, even women don’t want to be treated this way. It’s creepy as hell. And once a woman has figured you out, you’re no longer a strange being that makes her vajayjay tingle at the sight of your eyes and the sound of your voice.

 

 

Cleaning N95 Masks

Cleaning N95 Masks

In this video, we show how to clean the n95 mask using UV light.

Do we answer how to clean the N95 mask? Is it possible to sterilize an N95 respirator? With the lack of personal protective equipment and mask shortage, we’ve had to turn to desperate measures for desperate times. We take a break from vaping and learn how to disinfect the n95 face mask with UV C light technology. The N95 masks or n95 respirator in this video are a different type. They are similar to the KN95 masks but they’re American. This video is really a chance for me to get. to know my audience. I decided and saved up enough to come up with a little kit that I can give out to the first 20 people who sign up for it. The first and second sign-ups will receive the extra UVC devices I received. Anyway, more info about that in the video.

Disclaimer:
This channel has no advertisements and is not monetized by YouTube or Google. However, to keep the channel (and business) running, we share ideas and insights to help you discover the items that can be essential to you. We utilize the Amazon Affiliate program, so we may receive compensation for any such products that we review. I am not a medical professional. I do not offer professional advice, just personal experiences. Abstract Discovery LLC assumes no responsibility for your actions towards the content.

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Merch: http://ablerxcpe.com

 

HOW TO DISINFECT N95 RESPIRATOR W/ UVC BOX STERILIZER (N95 MASKS GIVEAWAY)

HOW TO DISINFECT N95 RESPIRATOR W/ UVC BOX STERILIZER (N95 MASKS GIVEAWAY)

In this video, we answer how to clean N95 mask? IS it possible to sterilize a N95 respirator? With the lack of ppe, and mask shortage, we’ve had to turn to desperate measures for desperate times. We take a break from vaping and learn how to disinfect n95 face mask with uv c light technology. The N95 masks or n95 respirator in this video are a different type. They are similar to the KN95 masks but they’re American. This video is really a chance for me to get. to know my audience. I decided and saved up enough to come up with a little kit that I can give out to the first 20 people who sign up for it. The first and second sign ups will receive the extra UVC devices I received. Anyway, more info about that in the video.

Disclaimer:
This channel has no advertisements and is not monetized by YouTube or Google. However, to keep the channel (and business) running, we share ideas and insights to help you discover the items that can be essential to you. We utilize the Amazon Affiliate program, so we may receive compensation for any such products that we review.

Disclaimer:
I am not a medical professional. I do not offer professional advice, just personal experiences. Abstract Discovery LLC assumes no responsibility for your actions towards the content.

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Connecting Through Good Music

Connecting Through Good Music

Before the Good Music… Go ahead, we all need to take a breather.

Hi! If you’re new to the abstract discovery, welcome! As of writing this, we’re four months shy of 2021.

We lost 2020. Even more, we lost lives, sanity, human rights, friends, family, finances, and sadly, hope.

What do you do when you lose the last thing you have? Hope is all we have in times like this but I don’t blame anyone for losing it.

This year has tested every business and individual. It brought out the truth. It was a year of cleansing.

However, if you’re one who’s lost hope in everything, be assured that you still have this moment.

You still have life, you’re still breathing. Before we know it, we’ll be a moment in history and eventually, life will go on.

The purpose of this page is to share music, videos, poems, or any kind of media that can offer us a reason to have hope, again.

Connecting the Philippines with the Filipino’s overseas, we welcome everyone to chime in.

If your vision doesn’t make you look crazy, it’s not big enough.

If your vision doesn’t make you look crazy, it’s not big enough.

“They won’t see your vision. They simply can’t. But with the right amount of work, your vision will become contagious.”
Here I am, enjoying the last day at our old office at Cross Campus, El Segundo. I didn’t know my friend was taking a picture.

It was this moment where I was scared about the next step in the brand. My mentor consulted with me and gave me an ultimatum.

It was,

“Go all in or just stop what you’re doing cause you’re wasting your time.” To me, I was confused because I thought that I was already, “all-in.”

Now my head is all over the place. I was working a full-time job at a psychiatric facility, I co-hosted a podcast and YouTube Channel, and on top of that, I had just started a clothing brand.

If there is any advice I could give, it’s to do what makes you happy while doing what makes you money. You can take that however you want to interpret it. In the end, it will all riddle the same meaning.

That’s why I was in my thoughts in this picture. I knew that it was great to have this office for the podcast and for creating content, but with the clothing brand being established, it was a commodity that I had to give up if I really wanted this new brand to succeed.

 

 

How To Tell If Your Mask Is Effective? (N95 vs KN95 COMPARISON)

How To Tell If Your Mask Is Effective? (N95 vs KN95 COMPARISON)

How To Tell If Your Mask Is Effective?

A side by side n95 vs kn95 comparison! Since there is a mandatory face masks/face-covering law, makers from all trades have dedicated to creating more masks.

A new market has opened. Like the previous episode, I brought out the vape and put on my non-scientific coat and threw on my, “I am not medical professional hat.”

During my month-long hiatus, I found myself in the weirdest places looking for these masks called, “N95 Masks or N95 Respirators.”

I found out more about the underground black market. Best believe, these N95 Masks and KN95 Masks are in abundance. While the news has been saying there is a shortage of PPE, what I saw was an oversaturation of effective masks. Effective in the sense that they were definitely N95 strong, but they were illegally manufactured.

Some of these products go through various cycles of re-labeling and rebranding. For example, if “ABC Masks” gets flagged for some reason and lose their NIOSH entitlement, they would simply change the packaging. They’d operate under multiple fictitious business names. I discovered more then I wanted to know during this study.

From counterfeit masks being stronger than the real 3M N95 Masks. To the most strongest mask, rating N99. I hope you enjoy this video.

This one tested my will power and purpose. I literally wanted to give up. I’ve been having issues in my personal life as well. I’m sure we’re all going through something today.

That inspired me to just create and even though I don’t have support from friends or family, I know that I’m happier when I’m creating. Kn95 mask review and face-covering options!

 

In a Time of Crisis, Your Strongest Weapon is Your Pen

In a Time of Crisis, Your Strongest Weapon is Your Pen

Where Empathy Overrides Power on Any Given Day

Have you ever thought about how powerful a simple pen is? I’m sure there are customized pens made for government spies and while that is cool, the strongest asset is the pen’s ink. As a medication-technician in the psych unit, your pen becomes all that you have. I’ll tell you more about this later.

For nearly two years, I worked alone overnight and was responsible for over a hundred psychiatric patients. Schizophrenia, bipolar, and borderline personalities; I spent forty hours of the week with. That’s 160 hours a month, you can continue the math.

Many have said to me that it should be easy since it’s late at night when all the patients are sleeping. Many have also not had the pleasure. For the most part, I don’t look at anyone with a mental disorder any different than I look at myself. Little does anyone know, I am outpatient. Disclosure, voluntary.

That’s something I learned about myself after being attacked by something I could not control or be fully prepared for. The way I react externally to any crisis will bleed onto the sheet of my internal and often astute, hidden truths. Be mindful, calm, even more creative, I tell advise.

 



If I truly desire to be a thought leader then my target must be to hustle and motivate without being ignorant of the current situation happening right before our eyes.

A patient has been cheeking their meds for well over two weeks. I begin to see a change of personality. This change is subtle and takes one to know one. Their family decides to take them home during the weekend to spend some quality time with their beloved. Social distancing is ironically not their thing, I guess. I would prepare two days and two nights of their medication and stuff them into small ziplock bags. They should be back by Monday morning to take their meds during the first roll call.

Almost always, they’re back the next day. As they hand me Sunday’s meds, I say, “Back already, huh?” as I examine their eyes, posture, mood, and tone. Pupils fully dilated, response time quick, attitude; insolent.

Red flag, the patient is high, but don’t make such assumptions out loud. As I process all of these thoughts, I start documenting on the laptop. The next shifts would need such data. I check for any signs of abuse or injections.

I ask the patient if there is something wrong or is there something I should know so I could better assist and provide them the service they needed to promote their right to a “quality of life.”

They tell me, no, but their behavior screams the opposite.

I take out my pen and give them an offer;

“Listen, I can protect you but you gotta play ball with me.”

Works every time. “I used it again, I’m sorry, I’m going to bed.” Thought so, I don’t write them up, I don’t report it. I ask, are you ready to come down or still chillin’?

Regardless of the answer, I say drink some water before you leave and bring some with you. If they were ready to come down and sleep, over the counter omeprazole and Benedryl did the trick if they didn’t have a script for quetiapine fumarate (Seroquel)[.] Methamphetamine, the suspect as usual.

I live in Los Angeles, California, where the first imagery that comes to mind is that of Hollywood, the American Dream, and home to the dankest strains mother nature produces by the evergreen. You don’t automatically think about the homeless, the domestic violence, the easy access to drugs, retail and recreational marijuana.

No, I’m not discriminating against anyone or making assumptions without clear circumstantial evidence. I have to know my patients and better, create mutual respect. Without either, you could not last in this position. I learned this early in my career and this is nothing you can learn ‘textbook.’

The political system in the mental health field is one-sided, “the patient is the priority. This is their home, you have a job because they’re paying to be here.

You’re getting paid to be here.” If there is a fire, you’re the last one out (if your lucky), no exceptions. Remember these thoughts as someone who probably brings home at least fifty grand a year.

As I question why I only make the city’s minimum wage. Which grosses to around twenty-six grand tops, no benefits, no 401k, no health insurance, no paid time off, and no fucks given, at-will. Since I took the “harder way” it’s always difficult to find a job that truly invested in me for the long run.

Yet,

I take out my pen.

I sign all the documents stating that I’ve read all the above and understand what it means to be an at-will employee. Upon my termination, I take out my pen once more and sign that I acknowledge the termination and would like to receive my $700 check. If we didn’t sign, we wouldn’t receive our check. I look at my check and I start to cry because this is two-dollars short of my rent.

That pen I used could have got patients kicked out of the facility. That’s why I didn’t write them up if they were honest with me. It’s accountability.

Be real with me and I’ll be real with you.

I don’t want to take away your home and I am not nosey. I just need to know who to look out for in case there’s screaming, fighting, overdosing, and court orders. I’m that medication-technician that will tell your caseworker that you get better every day, but every day doesn’t get better. No one is perfect. As long as there are no signs of abuse, we coordinate to keep people out of jail.

Even when we give out so much empathy, I learned that empathy will not earn someone’s respect. It takes sacrifice, going against the grain, but not to my benefit at all. It’s career-suicide for me, but as an at-will employee, I need it like the flowers need the light of day and water as the fountain of well-being.

Respect might not matter to you. I remember saying that the first time I got my ass beat by a patient for “having no respect.” Respect is not an entitlement, I learned that it’s a survival skill. Just as these people knew that they could beat me down if they wanted to, they knew that I could put them back on the streets if I really wanted to. I can orchestrate the entire scenario, but I don’t.

 

They say the more you learn, the more you earn. It’s quite the opposite in this environment. The more you earn respect, the more you’ll learn how to adapt to an environment where a crisis is normal and silence becomes suspicious. I earned my respect because I learned to use my pen wisely.

You have to take into consideration what kind of trauma these people have been through. Not to add what they are currently going through with overcrowding and serious disregard for the housing and cleaning of the facility.

The smell of broken homes, the scent of someone selling everything but their soul, and reek of the life that used to be; laid dormant without wanting to shower or eat. Could you write anyone up?



Imagine taking away the last thing someone had. Like the scent of someone who sold everything but their soul finally lost her last possession. She’s back on the street and God only knows what’s going to happen to her.

Your pen all of sudden is a lot more powerful than you thought. But, it’s alone. It needs you to use its power. In a time of crisis, it needs you to (see picture above, limit or practice virtual hugs for now).

I’m well aware of what is happening today, but that doesn’t need to be the only conversation we are having. In fact, it should be the last conversation we have. Okay, that sounded scary, I didn’t mean it that way. I meant — you get me.

There is a solution to every problem. Problematically, solutions being hard to come by, are sometimes the most inconvenient, scary, unimaginable, hardest “pills” to swallow but we have no choice.

We only have to trust. We must continue to write these letters to the future. So they can learn from our mistakes. 

They can pick up where we left off, as their future will pick up their’s.

It’s time, you’ve been here long enough. You know what you have to do. Finish that book. Publish that article. Look back at all your drafts that you never had the inspiration or will to complete.

 

You have all this time now. Publish that. You’re running out of money to pay your bills, you’re afraid your credit report is going to show your irresponsibility during a global pandemic? Tell them to piss off. You’re good for it, dispute it and it’ll be removed later, trust me. Let’s do what we do, writers and amateurs (like me). Do so, “to a T.”

Stay safe. Health is wealth. The social distance over social ignorance. Listen to the professionals that step in when the commander in chief doesn’t have the answer. Then disregard his following, opposite, and often optimistic snarks. Frontliners, we cannot thank you enough.

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